I feel like I should be more excited and enjoying my pregnancy. I feel bad like it is a sign that I don't love my soon to be born daughter. I just hate not having the lifestyle I had prior to being pregnant. My eating habits have gone to s**t and walking has become more of a chore than something enjoyable. All I want to do is sit on the couch and watch tv and drown my sorrows (not as fun with water though).
I have wanted nothing more than to have a family and have kids. At one time I wanted 4. Now I am praying that my 2nd is a boy so that I can be done. I never in my wildest dreams thought it would be so hard. I know once I see her face it will all be worth it, but I am so nervous that I am not going to take it all in and just enjoy being her mom and her being my daughter.
Oh the thoughts of a hormonal soon to be mom! Well thanks for letting me rant- I am off to the chiropractor for an adjustment! Thanks to all the travel and weight gain my hips are out of whack and everything on my body aches!
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